resplendent visage

moved!

2007-12-31T04:10:00.001+08:00

HEYLO!
I MOVED, so don't come back here again :P
cos you won't see anything new.
click on th link above&it'll take you to th new site!
LOVE,

leaving in 5 hrs!

2007-12-11T10:32:00.000+08:00

my flights gna be at 3.05pm later! :D
i'm gonna miss a whole lotta people man.
jiyeon just came back D: i don't knw if i'll get to see her cos she has tuition till 2pm. D:
anyw, i went for camp planning w th rest yesterday. i feel bad cos i can't stay for th whole planning. i'm sorry boonteck, sorry batch 8.

met up w the choir people. gosh, i had a lot of fun.bowling&all. i got like 59 or sth. just ONE point away fr my target. hahaha, thank God lionel was there to take away my title as TURTLE person. anyw, thank you all: timothy, sean, daniel, lionelQ, lionel ho, jared, delvin&simon! :D plusplus, SH! of course, loret&mel [: you guys made my day yesterday. i'll miss all of you. [: &benedict too! thanks for your msgs yst. it was rly an encouragement t me! cheers t our many years of friendship. :D

ohoh, will be moving to www.thclandestinecloset.wordpress.com soon!
i knw it'd be boring. like skins&all. but still, it'd be easier for me to blog abt my heartfelt emotions? cos there are protected posts. [: heh.

it'll work out soon :D

distaste.

2007-12-08T23:24:00.000+08:00

at this point of time i feel a bolt of injustice :/
maybe a little finding out would do you good, lest you make wrong judgements.

ugh, but i'm too tired to bother myself with problems again. i just wanna knw whats wrong&TRY to improve th situation.

actually you knw what? it doesn't really matter what other's think. i'm not gna create bad blood amongst people or anyth. they'll see tt we're not who they think we are. actions do speak LOUDER than words, they'll see&realise. [:

{haha. i'm learning my lesson: don't let anger take a hold of you&your actions}

yesterday was a relief to me. thank God that by bedtime i got problems countered with _______ &_________ settled. i woke up at 11.45am today :D discussed things on monday&all. i really wonder how it'd go, its difficult to handle big groups of people. D: i do hope most of them would make it. at least it'll really be a bonding session then right? bryan's gna get wallets for our x'mas present? haha :D thankyousomuch mister! (:

today's service was awesome. i was a tiny bit late D: Dr. John Avanizi came&shared w us on th area of Finances. becoming a millionaire doesn't seem like something we all cannot attain in life anymore [: i think its more like, WHEN will you become one. yeah, we've seen&heard so many testimonies alr. it'd be our time to testify soon :D anyw, he shared abt the fig tree&built his message on revelations upon revelations. it was rly awesome [: we went t paya lebar t dine tday. ate japanese cuisine, ahh, i love salmon sushi! somehow i don't get sick of eating sushi, not once@all.

i'm gna start writing short shoutouts to people? :D

kuekjing: i miss you! nw that you're grounded&cannot come for SO MANY EVENTS i think twice abt going! simon said w/o you, th monday outing wouldn't be fun D: ugh. but thank God for clique outing! i'll see you then. plus i'm flying off on tues eh! I HAVEN'T SEEN YOU OR TALKED TO YOU FACE-TO-FACE for ages! goodness!

sean: i'm so sorry for making you feel bad. but i've picked up anger management along th way. so in a way, i thank you [:

loret: i don't knw what t do nw. but i'm glad we're talking abt things again. jiyeon tagged me&she misses you! haha. don't get too worked out by what other people say, sometimes they just don't see it th way you do. have a good talk w him [: but come what may, i'm here for you <3

jiyeon: i have so much to fill you in luh! PLEASE COME BACK SOON. i miss you very very very the much can?! i just hope i get time to see you before i go (:

jacob: i got tons of things to tell you abt also. but you're just always not online. so oh well, thanks for listening&everyth. i've got things under control, i hope :D thanks agn, you've been superb help to me!

lionel: tytytytytysm! for listening to me ranting, gossiping, whatever. &i'm sorry for always NOT abiding according t your after-10 policy. it's just somehw or rather the more interesting things always happen after 10pm? lol. anyw, thanks again for being thr for me [:

bryan: thank you too. cos you always care unconditionally&all. although i don't knw whats next, but i hope that we'll all get to be bonded as friends over time (: you've always been a great help t me, thank you! (:

wooohoo! i'm leaving in 2 days. i can't wait! :D

found faithful again.

undeniable.

2007-12-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

yesterday [:

blogger's down. so i'm typing my post on notepad first. i haven't been blogging much, i know. hahah, its just that i've been going wild shopping online. but still, i haven't shopped for anything so far. that's being picky and fussy for you! but i've seen some great sites to get bags&stuff though. then i realised a lot of things i saw online, i saw at bugis village today. EXACT ONES TOO!

anyw, before i go on about my great findings@bugis today, :D, let me blog about yesterday first.

i went to make my i/c at the embassy! like finally, after they had to send me a reminder&allocate a period of time for me to do it. went to the instant photo place& took my photo twice. the first one got rejected by the aunty cos she said i smile too widely. {now i feel like that's a crime} so i took one where i didn't show my teeth at all :/ didn't look that good, but it was fine i guess.then then we homed after going to get my sec 4 texts. just got maths cos SS was outta stock. ugh,2 chapters of SS notes. ugh! D:

met mich&loret today at wheelock's place. :D i miss them two sooooo much! its really indescribable [: especially mich, although we hardly talk&all. but somehow its that kinda feeling on the inside of me tt gleams when i see her. :D really! so anyw, SSM {to protect his/her identity :D} came&joined us. we bought cakes from the Big O&went to wisma atria to eat. that place brought back memories, a lot of places do actually. {due to some unfortunate circumstances, hah}

so so, mich left.loret,me&SSM went to outfitter girls@PlazaSing to get tops. ahh, it was blissful. we got same tops! just that mines red&hers black. we're gna wear it tgr tmrw for mel's birthday celebration [: then then we went lunching upstairs. so we decided to go to Fateful Bugis. we normally don't go there, cos of the scary crowd. well, i was proved right when i got lost, like literally. i went up the escalator&couldn't find the one going down. so i was literally stuck. i walked round&round calling loret for help. thank God we found our way. but first, this awesome shop with tons of vintage tees! okay their tops are SGD 23 but ahhhh, nice :D i got two from that particular shop. it is so fantastic. &nope, i didn't regret it! mummy said i shldn't get th one from OF, but whatever! :P i'll like treat it as my own x'mas present! hahah.

went to pasir ris fr the 3G's bbq. a least we've made a tiny bit of improvement of bonding yea? we cancelled the bbq order from BBQWholesales. ahaha, i salute LeslieChua!he's good, he was demanding the operator why the food hasn't arrived when they said they'd come this-to-this time.&even like almost an hr later it hasn't arrived yet. then hahaa, he just cancelled it on the spot! cool aye, i wouldn't have been able to do it. so we stuck with hotdogs and barbacued chicken :D

'don't have satay, no stingray. ): but we have to be contented with what we have.'
- carebear

hahaha, i'm so gna get that carebear tee for him! we shall commamorate our 3years of friendship next yr!

so so so anyw, gossip frnd called! ahh yea i made him feel all guilty abt not getting stuffs for me fr japan. but not that anyone really cares anyw. haaha, i'm so glad they're all back :D i missed them all for 7 days. yep. ohoh, we're meeting tmrw. so that kinda brightens up my week :D i hope it all goes well though [:

ah, i'm so sorry for staying on the phone so long :/ i missed out on the gossipy talk with th rest of the class D: i'm so sorry jacob! anyw, the bbq was a success to me personally. despite the odds againsts us, we managed to fill our stomach&despite the rain esp! we kept the charcoal burning! :D heh.

okay, its 12:19am now& i stink of barbacue! ugh. okay, i'm off to chongliang nw!
:D

P.S: congrats CH&KX :D so excited cos i knw you two will be blissful tgr. its like a fairytale come true? to me that is, i now knw how it'd be to meet 'the piece that completes a puzzle'.

today [:

if you're gonna say you didn't mean it LATER, why not just knw your limits NOW.

today's celebration was half horrid, really. i don't really wanna blog abt it? :/ it isn't a day i'd wanna rmbr. okay, probably part of it? the part when mel smiled when she opened her presents. [: happy belated birthday girl! :D

i get to say what i want to say here,right?
well, here it goes.
its as simple as i hate long waits.

so we all had to wait for you when you went to meet him. okay, i understand that part. then you were gone for like _____ long? fine, probably you could say i'm impatient, whatever you say. you kept her waiting, and what could i say? 'she probably went t the toilet.' like it was a story anyone would buy?

'oh, the movie is now?', you replied.

and you said i wasn't suppose to tell anyone he was there. well, I DIDN'T, okay? i kept my word.

yes you apologised&i accepted it [: by saying nevermind, i'm not saying i'm agreeing&accepting all these things you're doing. after this, i'm just gonna shrug it off& pretend nothing happened.

that was one.

then it was the two ______ people. fill in the blanks yourself, cos i don't knw any word which is capable of describing them. assuming that i could take so much in a time was definitely a wrong perception of me. i have my limits, they just went overboard. i could have slapped them right across th face if we didn't leave earlier.

this is how bad th day was for me.
goodness, thanks for reading this post yea?
:/

&i shall never shed a tear over these issues.

indescribable

2007-12-03T13:46:00.000+08:00

i looked through the juniors' friendster just nw. i must say, i'm really glad that ties that bonded phs with st.gabs are still growing strong.
although they're away at japan right nw.
but its like connections everywhere, especially between the sec 2s.
haha, lionel you're so wrong!
your sec 2s are close to my sec 2s too! :P
anyw, whatever it is, its heartwarming to see how close-knitted they are from all the photos&all :D

it's time to reach in deeper into lives [:

because L-O-V-E is a magic word.

staying in =/

2007-12-01T22:01:00.000+08:00

i've been staying@home the past few days,ever since the chalet. gosh, i still feel horrible. the ulcers seem to be bothering me a lot. i've tried gargling salt water twice, drank honeyed water once and ugh! it seems like it's not going away D:

i do have better things to do, its just that i keep waking up with this horrible feeling that makes me wanna stay home&just stay in bed. well, that's what i've been doing the past few days so far. LOL. thank God for mummy&daddy cos they've been staying in too. haha, oh yes, an achievement: i helped mummy shop for groceries twice today! [: not so bad, huh?

i can't wait to leave for indo! i miss my cousins&grandma there. i really really hope we get to see our relatives on daddy's side :D it'd be blisssssssss, i tell you. :D

jiyeon left for korea today D: she didn't want us to send her off D: said it was too weird&all. i hope i get to see her when she comes back&before i leave. i miss her already D: ugh.

never stop getting tired of giving,
cos in due time, you'll reap a bundle of harvest.

picture perfect!

2007-11-30T13:32:00.000+08:00

sending off the first batch of vocal emsemble [:

T1's viweing gallery. gate 41 was tooo far away, we couldn't see the JAL plane@all D;

ben&bryan left. so we took final pictures!

we have substantial evidence that we were feeling sad that the St Gab's guys were gone. LOL.

while waiting for the 2nd batch of vocal emsemble&band guys to check in. loret was on the phone with michelle :D

we cam-whored in the toilet =S

we came to the Gardens@Changi Airport in T2.

we spent a long long while hogging the place :P

then we walked a mile to T2's viewing gallery.

that marked the end of our adventure@Singapore Changi International Airport :D

being with my two bestfriends certainly took my mind off them being gone for a bit [: i'm sure loret feels the same way. we had tons of fun there at the airport. stay till ard 1am :D heeeeeee.

taking you back to the present: i'm awfully sick! D: D: D: my throat is killing me.

ugh.

cam-whoring/ st. gab's japan farewell [:

2007-11-30T00:33:00.000+08:00

you're gonna be in for a treat! :D
i'm gna upload photos like crazy.

we went to T1 to send the st.gabs guys off. wanted to take a whole lot of photos before they're gone for the next 7days, but no, cos they made a big deal of out everything D: but then! loret got to take one with jared. {YAY!, seriously its hard cos he's shy/non-responsive in some ways :P}
it bothered me a little to know that my gossip friend would be away for the next 7 days.
but oh well, whatever it was, we said our goodbyes.
i knew i was gna miss simon&lionel the most la. cos obviously we're closer to them as compared to anyone else in the vocal ensemble. haha,sean&timothy. D: NAWWWWWW.
so that was for the first batch of guys who transitted at KL before flying to Tokyo-Narita.

right after the first batch, we {loret, jiyeon, ben&bryan} went to the eating place upstairs to grab something to eat. the second batch came&we decided to stay on to send them off too. it was quite an emotional moment for loret, but she went through it. jiyeon&i were proud :D in a way, cos we knw it was difficult when someone so close to one's heart goes away. a day is painful enough, let alone a week ): details of whatever happened can be found here! at her blog.

we met up with minyen&junhui :D finally. haha, &all 5 of us camwhored like crazzzyyyy.
loret&junhui came with us to the chalet to spend the night.
it didn't start out right though, but things got better.
i slept the most throughout :P
and grace, vis, tam, jiyeon&i went to escape! hahahahhh,it was trilling, but it wasn't enough D:
it was until just now, at the BBQ when everything felt so right again.
2I actually shows affection to each other, you could say that we do care for&love each other [:
its through the little acts that paints a whole new bigger picture [:

photos cannot be uploaded still! D:
oh yeah, i saw yingyian on the way home from paris ris.
KUEKKKKKKKKK! :D
alrighty, shall post the photos tmrw,
nightynight! <3

2I chalet!

2007-11-27T19:29:00.000+08:00

i'm finally done with all my EL hw! :D
but i'm left with so many other subject to go D:
tmrw's day one of the 2integ chalet.
:D :D :D
i can't wait.
jiyeon&i are gonna go send the st.gabs people off [:
with 2 mister nice guys- ben&bryan.
hopefully it all goes well.
[:

i bet 2I's chalet would be a blast,
haha, i honestly think i still haven't gotten over my long-lost 2I love.
what can i say?
2I is love.
then there's the 3G chalet on the 4-6th dec.
:/ i have to get all my holiday work done before i fly to indo.
i might probably meet albert, heh.
i miss chiamengchao&albert tjahja!
D:

printed those people the photos took fr that day we went to VIVOCITY.
i kinda miss those days, really.

here are they! pictures from vivocity.
SEC 3 PHS& ST.GABS GIRLS&GUYS
DANCE REHERSALS WITH TH ALUMNI
&THE PAIRS FOR WHAT TIME IS IT,
namely SZEHOE and GLADYS, JUNHAO&I.

friends are angels sent from heaven.

its happyness that keeps one going (;

square one

2007-11-27T00:51:00.000+08:00

its 12:53am now& i just came back from loret's house.
took a cab, surprisingly it costed me $9.15 :D (incl 35% extra midnight surcharge). mummy wouldn't let me stay over, she said she missed me too much&all. plus daddy's coming back later at 11 plus in the mrng. ugh, i miss him like crazy.

went to school for jiyeon's phototaking thingy. we're gonna appear on some newspaper! (we forgot to ask which one :P) we had the photoshoot for approx. 1 whole hour before we were dismissed D: so i brunched out@macs with jiyeon&vis! then to kuek's condo to hang out with the rest of the choir [: played heartattack!&watched them play bridge (gosh, i still don't get the game). followed them to lunch&then me, loret&kuek met up with sean&tim :D we were an hour late! :P {sorry!} but it was quite fun? i suppose so. cos sean had no idea what to buy. so we were suggesting&giving our opinions, soaking them all up, &then FINALLY we got a few pretty wonderful gifts that i'm positive she'd like.

loret: 'awww, he's so sweeet!' :D

i had a horrible time for awhile thinking abt so many things@loret's. but i felt better after she digged everything out of me, i just blabbered everything out :/ thanks girlfriend [: tried to work things out with her, but i honestly don't know how it'd turn out. about him, gosh, i don't know. about the other him, ugh, i honesly have no clue. she said most of the time i think the way out is to just not talk to that certain someone, which i cannot deny. i'm just too tired mentally to think of a way out, i guess.

thanks ben,for always always being there. you worried a lot, i know. sorry for not picking up your calls D: you're always appreciated! [: yesyes, always.

thanks bryan! even though i hardly know you, but i was suprised by your words of encouragement to me on your PM. [: thank you so so much. i'm here too, if you need to share anything that's bothering. i hope you feel better yea (;

thank God, for His strength, i didn't freak out of anything, i managed to talk and think through things quite calmly. haha.

you'll never know what's going on,
you'll never know that it was you all along.

on the verge.

2007-11-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

Today was rather interesting (; Met Jill, Kuek and Gladys around 12& we went to Sakae Sushi for lunch. Hahah, it was pretty cool, cos we were talking abt the future& abt the choir in future, next year's singout! concert, the past years' singout! concerts. Yeah [:

Singing at YangKai's church wasn't so bad, we blended in well afterall I guess. Talked to Kuek a lot about him, and her. Hahah.

Now I'm all tired from the day's events D: So let the pictures speak for themselves.

from yesterday's ECP outing [: YAM SENG!

sher, sca& chiagek!

the alto girls! <3

random leh!

looking good guys! (;

before going to the santuary.

ernestttt!

my favourite.

acting all 'kawaii' :P

me, yiyuan&eunice [:

a bus trip@night with the choir will never fail to make you smile.

i can't do it anymore.

sunset@ECP [:

2007-11-24T09:46:00.001+08:00

We went to ECP to have fun yesterday! It was quite heart-warming when we watched the sunset together [: Took a number of photos! Yay. Kuek learnt how to rollerblade, Congrats bro!

It was a pretty sight.

dancing in the SUNlight!

me love.

UVPHS.

it ended pretty too.

I think I did something really dumb last night. I'm sorry Lionel!

I'm trying hard to keep. But I wouldn't want to be trying too hard.

I'm off to lunch with Kuek,Gladys&Jill! :D Gonna be singing at YangKai's church later (;

Singout! 2007

2007-11-23T14:10:00.000+08:00

Singout! 2007 was a blast! I so thank God for the opportunity. For friends who came down to support UVPHS&Singout! 2007 [: It was relieving when it ended, we ended it well. I guess the thought of us not having another concert next year struck me. I did the 'emotional' thing with Gladys :D Hahah. Thank God for those four that always brighten my days in choir, namely: Kuek Jing,Gladys, Loret& Jiyeon! The Alumni item was well done! It was the scariest of all, but we managed to pull it off! Hahah, even the changing part was fun, we ran everywhere taking clothes of the racks&everything, changing and then changing back :P

Grace, Wenyi, Eugene, David& Jacob: Thank you so so much for waiting up to have dinner! But we couldn't in the end because of some unforeseen circumstances ): But then still, I love you all! <3

Benedict, Samuel& Co.: Thank you all too! [: At least we did have dinner! Hahaha, be if doorman or tableman, Singout! 2007 wouldn't be complete without you all. <3

Much thanks to Glenden, Nik, Bryan, Russell &everyone else who came to support Singout! 2007! [:

And of course, the most important people! Chrissy, Kevin, Mummy& Shireen! :D

Shanelle& Daddy couldn't be there. But I still love them all the same! <3
I love you I love you I love you!

We went to SR Macs to have supper! Then Timothy, Sean&I had some crap talk till around 2.30 in the mrng! D: It was torturous at first, cos I was tired and all. Then it started to look up a bit. It was fun, I mean I learnt quite a lot from them. After compensating for the few days of being sleep deprived, I woke up at 11 plus today! :P

I don't really know how to express the feeling I have now. Maybe it can be summarised by the word, Thankfulness? Yeah, for the friendship that were forged during this time. Like YingYian, Sebastian, Meryl, Shannon, Debra&those Sec3s from St.Gabs. It isn't possible for all to stay, but some will and then we'll knw that those few are the ones true [: Hahah, plus there's my gossip partner, Lionel Ho! Hoho :D

Plus there's the Alumni! Jill, Joyce, Laurel, JiaJun, Shu Luan, Lillian, LimHan. Even though there's probably an age barrier, or smth like that. But still, deep down we have the same roots&we all have the same love : To Sing&Dance [:

During rehearsals,

We celebrated Loret's advanced birthday! <3 Before we all leave for our holidays& all. We love you, Loret! <3

To Kuek, Gladys, Wilson, JunHao, Sze Hoe, Melody, Shernet, Julia, Loret&SingHau:
We made Singout! 2007 happen! [:

Ohyesyesyes! Nik's photos! [:

Hahah, that stupid monkey ate my flowers! D: But okay, I'll give it credit for being cute? :P

:D singout!

2007-11-19T21:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes i think i'm the most horrible person ever.
seriously.
i read your blog sometimes, and so many times i wished i'd be one of those to encourage you to go on. but somehow sometimes i can't let myself be bothered about these issues. i'm selfish, yes i know. i see you infront of me& yet i just sigh&walk away. it seems to me that i can't help it, but deep inside i know i can.

&then i end up feeling darn guilty abt everything i ever did.

its like the time i got so involved, i ignorantly forgot both of them. but thank God they understood what i was going through. sometimes, i think i'm just not giving enough :/ it's probably true, even though i feel as though i'm giving all that i've got.

i need to be more sensitive? i suppose that's the case. i may not even know how many people i've hurt&i'm hurting. i'm sorry, gabriel. i didn't mean to be such a pain :/ haven't i heard enough of 'do unto others what other's would do unto you'? gosh, it's time for some soul-searching, personally.

i need to realise that getting the job done at the expense of another person's feelings is not the way.

why do i feel that its so hard when i'm not exactly taking up a whole bunch of responsibilities? D:

{at this point of time i realise how i ALWAYS answer my own questions&jacob,you're so right.}

i'm not trusting in Him enough.

sisca, you gotta be smarter!
:D

contact lens!

2007-11-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

woke up@11am today :D
still feeling deprived of sleep though.
i watched hairspray and bratz yesterday.
fabulous!
got my first pair of contacts yesterday.
hahah, it feels good to see again [:
without having to wear specs that is.
{I know what You're thinking!}
had dance pract at some pavillion somewhere at toapayoh.
met mummy and kev after that.
had dinner at the our favourite steakhouse [:
Ben&Lionel are at their Exco SLC briefing thing.
so bored!
A.Maths test tmrw, this is crazy!

D:

singout! camp 2007

2007-11-16T22:26:00.001+08:00

we finished indescribable and had tons of fun today for games [:
felt proud, and hyped up, and high all over.
now i'm really drained and tired :/
its like i'm giving everything i've got already.
thats what it feels like.
me and kuek were talking abt what's gna happen aft singout.
whether friends are gonna remain or will they be gone when the concert is gone too.
:/ we all really won't know, will we?

Ahhhh, good night!

singout! 2007 reh@PHS [:

2007-11-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

Singout! Rehearsal@PHS

Me&Gladys had to take our Lit test early in the mrng&Chem test during lunch break! With Julia&Kuek too of course.

D:D:D:
That made me feel lousy for a while.
I guess the grouping for the games day tmrw is starting to make all 3 schools mix tgr more. Although its still quite obvious that they clique with people fr the same school. But hopefully things would improve! :D After approx 4 hrs of games tmrw :D

CAN'T WAIT!

AHHHH :D

Rehearsal was quite well done, did some tidying up&stuff. Which actually wraps almost everything up. I didn't touch dinner at all D: Wasn't really in the food to eat the whole day :/ Don't really know what's wrong. So..yeah.

The water fight at the canteen livened up everything :D Hahah, it was like the best for last! Hoho. Kuek raised the white flag&I won the war!

Tmrw would be another story, we've decided to become allies and attack other countries :P

Ben went out with ______ today! :D Hahaha, so proud so proud of him! Couldn't really believe that he was actually going out with ______, but it went alright. There's still a greater brighter future to look forward to! Haha.

Today's thankyou's!:
Gladys: For knowing me through&through, and for going through the whole day with me! Even though there were problems along the way. Yeah [:
Kuek!: For being almost everywhere to make sure everything went well.
Ernest&Nigel: For buying lunch back for me!
Sebastian,YingYian&Others: For helping us clean the canteen aft dinner! :P
Lionel&Simon: For helping us wipe tables aft dinner :P And for being patient with PHS during our fooling around, at the canteen aft dinner. Heh!

AND MANY MANY OTHERS.
{I don't think many people would see this anyw,heh.}

Singout! 2007(:

We'll come out greater& stronger.

pictures galore!

2007-11-14T22:36:00.000+08:00

our new house! :D

His promises.

UVPHS <3

Love,

Let Your Light

2007-11-11T21:23:00.000+08:00

The Light
All around there's people walking in and out
Of my life
But what you need ain't always what you find

All the time miracles will pass you by
If you try too hard on your own to get some
Peace of mind

Then you came into my life
Walked right into my heart
And now I count the minutes that go by
When we're apart
Togheter at the end
Together from the start
Oh yeah, together from the start

Let everybody see the light
Shining on my face
Shining in my heart
Let everybody understand
Let them know you're here
Shining like a star

Do you think that everyone is meant to see
What I see
That love and happiness will come your way
If you just give in
Things ain't what they seem to be
And you will find
There's not a better place than here today

Then you came into my life
Walked right into my heart
And now I count that minutes that go by
When we're apart
Together at the end
Together from the start
Oh yeah, let everybody see it

Let everybody see the light

All around there's people walking in and out

Oh, how it shines
Shining in my heart
Let everybody understand
Let them know you're here
Shining like a star

Let Your Light Shine [:

Yesterday's service was refreshing for me :D I came to realise how much we can do without Him, but at the end of the day all those things won't amount to anything. Felt burdened by things, but I'm sure He'll let His light shine through [: Carola Haggkvist came to sing for us this week. She played Maria in the Sound of Music. It was so awesome yesterday when she led worship too :D Sang a few songs, like 'Captured by a Lovestorm' which won the Eurovision in 1991. I guess it was awesome too cos I was at service with the few I missed so badly the past month or so. Seeing them put a smile on my face [:

Met the various chairpersons for Singout! discussion. I guess everyone felt more open, to discuss and share ideas and everyth. I still think that Simon is mad at us for being late though :/ Shannon showed me the lion that he was i/c of for the banners :D It looked great, especially to me, cos I can't draw for nuts D:

We're all in this together :D

I can't wait for dance pract! Gosh, Junhao! Haven't practiced with him yet! D:

So anyw, Mummy just came back from Indo :D Got the pictures right here! Ah, love the new house there. The fact that you can afford stuffs there which probably you cannot afford here [: Heh. We get to move in only next year. Mumsy bought really awesome clothes for us too :D

{Awman, smth's wrong with blogger now ): Will upload pictures next time!}

Thank God for my chair&table! Namely, Kuek&Gladys :D Loret, Jiyeon, Jacob [:
The two most handsome-est! brothers: Chesedale&Kev.

They make me smile, a lot [:

MAJOR happyness

2007-11-06T22:09:00.001+08:00

i can only put a sly smirk on my face now.
that will be all i can do to express the depths of happyness i'm feeling right now :]
i bet if any of you asked me what caused me to be so happy,
i'll definitely tell.
but then you will never knw how much this revelation means to me.
it just meant that i won't have anymore regrets, much less disappointments whatever.
:D

i wonder why it took me soooo long.

i'm sorry but maybe i was blinded before,
but now i can definitely see.
the only regrets i have nw is why i didn't see it before.
it may not be fair to you, but i'm sorry,
i have to make myself let those feelings go.
so where's no underlying unfavourable emotions whatsoever.
hah [:

ohhh, dance was greaaat! :D love it, at least we covered most of the steps [:

played monopoly with kevvy just now, for hours. i neglected everything else.
hey, i have to justify my actions though, i don't usually have so much time to enjoy playing games like that. anyw, i won! {:P} all lucky lah!

SISCA wins the game with $1,696 in cash and properties valued at $8,980!
woooohooooooo!

Psalm 23

2007-11-03T19:02:00.000+08:00

A psalm of David.

The LORD is my shepherd;
I have everything I need.
He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful streams.
He renews my strength.
He guides me along right paths,
bringing honor to his name.

Even when I walk through the dark valley of death,
I will not be afraid,
for you are close beside me.
Your rod and your staff protect and comfort me.

You prepare a feast for me
in the presence of my enemies.
You welcome me as a guest,
anointing my head with oil.
My cup overflows with blessings.
Surely your goodness and unfailing love will pursue me
all the days of my life,
and I will live in the house of the LORD forever.

Woke up feeling groggy today. Read Fatin's message that I should've been in school at 8.30am D: I felt reallllyyyy guilty,really. I guess I should've clarified things yesterday. Anyw, choir was fab today :D We're really improving in discipline and all that. Ms Yee and Mrs Wong asked we did our two songs well :D Really really proud of the entire choir :D Loret, Gladys and I had a heart-to-heart talk yesterday after choir. We actually hung out at YCK MRT Station for around 3 hours just talking everything under the dark dark sky. Hahah, I had a lot of fun.

Change is coming, definitely.

Practiced a lil bit of the Alumni dance. Hahaha, finally nailed that part right :D Can't wait for church tmrw, and the meeting right after. I'm still unsure of how the debate would be. The ASEAN Conference thing, ugh, still hasn't been prepared :/ But hah, I shan't freak out or run around in circles and faint [:

So anyw, I prayed and prayed and prayed in the morning. Felt a sense of desperation, I suppose. Cos I still didn't know how much to pledge for A&B. But thank God, cos He answers prayers, that amount kept coming into my head. I'd really need faith to fulfill it, I guess its a challenge for me. But still, I'm gonna pray about it again, I need reassurance [:

I thank God for opening doors for me to discover myself,
I'm really amazed myself.
I find myself falling in love with Him even more each day :D

:|

2007-11-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

i'm tired, it's like i can't get along with you sometimes.

don't think you know everything when you don't.
and don't you esteem yourself higher than the rest too much.
a person has got limits.

Gosh, i cannot wait for a break.

dance dance dance!

2007-10-30T22:29:00.001+08:00

had singout! dance practice today again. got to refresh some of the steps, but i got kinda distracted :X had to do the ASEAN Conference discussion, well, for a bit. the rest did a lot more than i did. i kinda feel guilty that i'm suddenly put into their group last minute. i think it's gonna be fun though. even though it's all abt research, debating, being nation minded& all that. but whatever, it's kinda like gaining some sort of experience. i just hope we make it through&our school gets selected :D junhao didn't come for practice, and i've yet to practice the parts with him. i bet it'd be really awkward! :P but oh well, gotta be professional abt it.

Gosh, Maths is really killing me. Radian&Circle properties stuff. Ugh,I'm gonna resume doing it tmrw. I'm just too tired to think now.. Kev&I went down to buy waffles to eat just now, we actually spent 1 hour walking ard buying things to consume :D Hahah, it's kinda cool if you think about it. We talked abt relationships, its like he said girls mature faster, thats why we see older guys dating younger girls. Anyw, he said the right age was around 18-19. I couldn't agree more. He's an awesome brother, and I can't believe I just said it! Hahahah.

ohohoh, can't wait to start on drama for literature classes. i hope we'll get to act the scenes out :D hah, sweet!

Why am I starting to question again?
I have that feeling everything is gonna be the same way again.
I hate to contain my emotions :|
Half past six attitude, right. I can't agree more.
{Gladys, if you happen to see this, its not the same person (:}

stress relief

2007-10-29T22:06:00.000+08:00

oooooooooooh, it's intense. this few days, weeks, months of school.
its intensive curriculum&choir now. plus singout!'s nearing..
i really really REALLY thank God for His grace&strength.
i wondered if i could go through all this things.
from the training camp, adventure camp, right up to singout! preparations.
sometimes i feel like i can't get through everything.
but still, i did :D
i'm pretty amazed myself.
mummy says its good, at least i don't think too much abt things that would distract me.
&yes, i've been thinking about wrong persons at certain times of the day.
but the 'hectic-ism' is taking its toll on me.
i cannot wait for outing with clique.
i cannot wait to go to indo&see my beautiful cousins&relatives.
i cannot wait to spend christmas overseas (:

i don't ever want to look back at my tracks again.

wooooh, been gossipy in class with kuek,sijie,grace,gladys&jacob lately.
i think i need to repent, i mean seriously, a lot of things are opened up when i'm with them.
i don't know if its a good thing or a bad thing now :P
hah, but choir's still as enjoyable as ever.
UVPHS, I love.

ohyesyes, Happy Birthday Eugene Ko Ming Jie :D

jazz :D

2007-10-21T16:40:00.000+08:00

thank God for my wonderful friends, cos they make me smile.
a lot :D

camp was tiring, i won't blog much about it. i bet others would :D look up the links, that'd help. we bonded, definitely. i'm falling in love with HPT all over again (:

L-O-V-E, I love you& you love me!
L-O-V-E, that's the way that it shld be.
L-O-V-E, I love you& you love me.
L-O-V-E, I love you, you love me.
Yeah!

oh, by the way, the market behind school was burnt.
was there at the scene itself, i felt..i don't know,seeing the stall owners sweat&blood gone just like that.

i'm beginning to like jazz a lil bit more.

back from camp!

2007-10-20T19:54:00.000+08:00

i'm back from camp!
:D
&this is the greatest 'happening' yet!
CHRISSY and shireen got attached
:D
WALALALA.
i'm happy for him, really.

habakkuk

2007-10-14T08:00:00.000+08:00

Habakkuk 3:17-19 (NLT)
'Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vine; even though the olive crop falls, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet I will rejoice in the LORD! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation. The Sovereign LORD is my strength! He will make me as surefooted as a deer and bring me safely over the mountains.'

I got that whilst having devotion just now. I didn't know why I woke up so early though, it was probably the sun. Or maybe cos I slept a lot yesterday. But I knew and I knew and I knew that that word was for me :D And I'm really thankful cos shows how much He cares, and how much He wants to make me stronger. Especially when this life of mine is hectic, yet fulfilling. And I need all the strength and grace I can even get (: The clouds in my mind feels lighter, I just needed to let go of some parts of it. Thank you MengChao&Albert for your plentiful advices. Haha,I'm making them sign a contract with me :D

When you search for Him, You'll find Him.
That's for certain :D

Saviour King

Let now the weak say I have strength
By the Spirit of Power
That raised Christ from the dead
Let now the poor stand and confess
That my portion is Him
And I'm more than blessed.

Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for Your son's Holy name
And with the heavens we declare
You are Our King

We love You Lord
We worship You
You are Our God, You alone are good.

Let now Your church shine as Your bride
That You saw in Your heart
As You offered up Your life
Let now the lost be welcomed home
By the saved and redeemed
Those adopted as Your own

Let now our hearts burn with a flame
A fire consuming all for Your son's Holy name
And with the heavens we declare
You are Our King

We love You Lord
We worship You
You are Our God, You alone are good.

You asked Your Son to carry this
The heavy cross, our weight of sin

I love You Lord, I worship You
Hope which was lost, now stands renewed
I give my life to honor this
The love of Christ, the Savior King

Into Your hand, I commit again.

psycho

2007-10-10T08:41:00.000+08:00

i've been telling myself that i've been thinking too much.
how much is too much,then? i ask myself.
:/

end of years' are over! :D

2007-10-08T23:48:00.000+08:00

today marks the end of the EOYS! all the best to those taking econs, kuek, wenmin, bryan, russell, albert, kenneth,etc. freedom is just one day away! :D went home today to rest, after not knwing what to do. i was pretty confused abt camp planning today. anyw, went shopping with chesedale cheese! amk hub, centrepoint then to plaza sing. he left me to go home alone though, had to go look for his 'special friend'.haha, again i would remind myself, its 'part&parcel' of being a little sister.so oh well..we bought kevin his belated present, a shirt fr Esprit. he loved it, butbutbut, M wasn't his size. it dropped fr his shoulders a bit, so we're going back to change it :D i'm still glad he liked it though. then again, i realised the joy of giving, it makes the givers' heart happy too.

its 12midnight now, on the 9th of october.
so HAPPY BIRTHDAY BENEDICT ONG! :D
thankyou for being there for me the past 5 years(&counting),it's quite amazing how we both have matured from primary school (: at least you stopped pulling girl's ponytails :P

wellwell, the next few days would be busy, but i'm enjoying every minute of it (: loret&i are going t the library tmrw to spend th day reading. wow, i miss reading, a lot. i've been abstaining novels so i could study textbooks. haha. it works pretty well.

then there's belay school on wed. i miss that too, i think we even enjoyed being punished for not belaying well, we had to do push-ups, but whatever, it was fun! esp. when the whole batch was there. it all seemed to feel right.

kevin's gna take the family out for dinner at astons! (: if you didn't knw, it's probably the finest steak restaurant, i love it there. miss the food :D heh.

ohohoh,the sec 2 adv camp takes up the whole of next week. mummy's gonna miss me, i knw. the worst thing is dad's gonna be in sg for two days while i'll be away at camp ):

he'll be back tmrw! wooooohoooo! :D:D:D i miss him i miss him i miss him!

ah, then there's going to st.gabs for singout! planning, and badminton with mengchao&co. &going on a FOOD ESCAPADE with nik&some others probably. we're gonna venture the whole of singapore (if possible) &critique all the food we try :P oh, and that will be coupled with 10days of hardcore exercise. hahaha :D

oh btw, i found CHIPPY'S at plaza sg today. they have great fried mars bars, according to nik. they make one gay, i suppose (:

:D happy-ness.

choir farewell function

2007-09-29T01:25:00.000+08:00

today was a day of much emotions. it was the CHOIR FAREWELL FUNCTION held at GRANDEUR 8. i guess bidding someone farewell ain't that easy afterall,let alone bidding a group of seniors close to the heart. we went ard hugging, eyes reddening as we contained all our tears then we just let it flow, at least i did. i couldn't help it. especially with anadee and cindy, i would definitely definitely miss them a wholeeeee lot :D no doubt abt it. we had our elections! &i must say i'm proud to announce KUEK JING as our chairman! :D i knew he was rly capable. it was predictable! hoho. we took a splendid picture& i loved it. i'll post it sometime. this year's farewell was heart-warming, with a doubt. i finally realise what our seniors feel& how we ought to strive harder so we won't fail them. they sowed their seeds into us, its time we shld give it back. i'm rly glad everyone stood by one another, choir isn't just a CCA, it is a family (:

i'll post the photos soon! its 1:39 now and i need sleep so badly.

thank God for UVPHS, i'd never know hw i'd be without them all.

GLADYS, KUEK JING! i'm so glad you guys are there. i knw we make a great team. DUH! :X

Loret& Jiyeon, you guys are th greatest, you both know me through& through. you both knw that! i bet you're just waiting for me to admit it! :P

love,

stress relief

2007-09-21T23:05:00.000+08:00

in the jungle,the mighty jungle,
the lion sleeps tonight.

:D i love the choir! or shld i say that group who'll always always make me smile, no matter how bad my day was or how horrid the weather may be. JUST LIKE TODAY (: my day wasn't that bad, it was quite pleasant, actually. they just made it better :D &i really really realised how much i love their company. we had th farewell practice today at the ACE room :D kuekkuek, siyang, yancheng, singhau, shernett, julia, gladys, loret, junhao, szehoe& i. we celebrated junhao's birthday too. he received like..3 bags and 1 cake! madeline was smart, she smeared the whole cake on his face!heh. it was tremendous fun! :D

went to eat subway with loret. they had no more hearty italian D: anyw, we spent almost 3 hours reading at the library. we borrowed, read at some void deck&returned our books :P we just couldn't stop reading. heh.it was like some stress-relief to me, i guess it does help a lot (:

rahhh, jamming timing is changed, and i cannot go!
D:

i shall be back, after the exams!
goodbye!

appalled

2007-09-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

sisca♥ says (22:14):
im totally appalled by my actions.

i can't believe i did it. shucks :|

finished the final episode of full hse, it made me cry. only that part when he said, "ji eun, don't leave me. stay by my side". hahah, he was sick, which made him lok really pitiful :D:D:D they got married in the end!

bio is draining me, a lot. haven't finished. shall sleep&study tmrw! i'm losing my ability to do without sleep ): i need to find motivations to study again. i'm thinking twice about being a psychiatrist. i cannot see anyth harmful to th eye. imagine some patient walks in with a cut, like, he/she attempted suicide before, i think i'll cry first la! :|

i have to get over it.

chrissy's out, probably meeting his future girlfried :P i'm like having mixed feelings. kev says its part and parcel of life. yeah right, as if. hah, but nevermind, its not the first anyw.

i'm sorry, i should've just sorted things out myself first before i did anything stupid to affect you.

how awesome!

2007-09-16T21:29:00.000+08:00

it feels so great to be around everyone, once again.
:D
i had an awesome time during service, probably cos i chose to step out from where i used to be- my comfort zone, into where i knw i wanted to be, up at the front, rededicating myself again (:
pst derek's who i wanna be next time :D
went for lunch with jeffrey&heidi. then met up with mengchao&loret to study, which wasn't really fruitful cos mengchao just occupied himself with his PSP. loret was saying,"i cannot do it la.", i did few pages of lit, &concluded my 2hr 40mins of study session. we ate A LOT! i dont know, MISS DONUT is.. well, okay. now i find donuts eeekky. too much of it will probably make you puke D:
i choose to stick with famous amos cookies! hah.

accompanied loret to IKEA to find her sis, to get her mum's thumbdrive. IKEA shopping would be SOOOO COOL la. i can picture my house next time, utensils with names engraved on it. oh, heavenly. i told loret about it. she just smiled, as usual. hoho :D my wardrobe would have lots and lots of compartments, one square for one watch, belt, whatnot. heh, i'd loveee it! :D

marcy just told me th band's gonna jam on saturday 0945. hah, i have totally no connection with jamming. but i just my self-recognition of being manager worked out. I AM BAND MANAGER! :P thankyou!

i'm so surprised i haven't knocked out yet. i only had like 5 hours of sleep yst. was talking to mengchao till 3am. mengchao, she'll come, don't worry (: patience will always be a virtue!

i have this new friend, well, not exactly new. minyen's friend, NIK. hah, all that we talk abt is just FOOD FOOD FOOD. here's smth interesting, FRIED OREO COOKIES.

CLICK HERE -- FRIED OREO COOKIES

its amazing, i might try it sometime :P

that wraps up almost everything! :D choir farewell's coming, i hope everything'll be okay&work out well. it would be nerve-wrecking if anything were to crop up.
let's just trust that He would provide! :D

i'm not going to make you come out of what you were,
i'd be too selfish of me.

(: mugging season!

revived :D

2007-09-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

i've been thinking to myself. so what if it was almost 9 months of regret? so what if i'm still suffering from all those memories? i know i cannot escape, for those were th decisions i made. i can never thank Him enough for what He has done, to deny it all even though it was as if i threw my face on th ground, and became so hardcore for what was wrong. i knew, but He knew better. i learnt and am learning, bit by bit. its kinda like i'm learning how to walk, to be dependent on my own. i'm thankful for it though.

hah, its been a week plus since i'd touch my blogger account. i decided to change th skin,and revive it, once again :D

even though a series of events occured, thankfully, i had people who stuck through with me, encouraging&telling me to move on&set my decisions on what i really want.
its been emotional, yet heartwarming. i liked it, a lot.
WENMIN, STACY, JEANETTE. thank you! (:

its mugging season (: so everyone, jiayou ah!

&yessss, i really want to thank these people:

ALBERT&MENGCHAO : i promise you both that you guys are the best!&i will appreciate you two better, its a promise kay.&i WILL fulfill it :D i knw you two care A LOT, i see it.you two show it :D heh, i'm rly fortunate to have you two!

GRACE : omgosh,without you, i would've gone crazy and berserk, especially in class. i'm so thankful i can always rant it all out in your presence,&you'll always be there to say, "I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL". xie xie ni huan hui'en! <3

SONGJIYEON : i knw you felt a lot for me that day i let it all out, i nvr saw anyone react like that before. you made me feel all better (: i love you best friend, a lottttt.

&&&LORETTA,JACOB&KAMESH&BEN for always being there to listen to what i had to say :D
&&KUEKJING, for sharing secrets. it made me feel better talking it out, although what we said didn't leave that SS classroom (:

&you: if you ever see this, for letting this happen. cos without it, i wouldn't know hw i can be stronger than who i was before :D

hee, i'm done!

i love You, Jesus.
deep down in my heart.

fiesta

2007-09-06T02:05:00.000+08:00

things don't go as planned sometimes.
somehow after the whole fiesta is over,
a part of you will realise,
it was all preplanned after all.
:D

gonna celebrate minyen's birthday later in the evening!
with jiyeon :D
is it back to th old days?
the THREE RETARDED MUSKETEERS.
maybe, probably?
would it be back to how it used to be?
hmm..

mengchao chia!

2007-09-05T09:53:00.000+08:00

List out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for:
1)iPod Video! {80GB}
2)Endless admissions to th finest restaurants in Sg (:
3)A super gathering with 2I clique.
4)A LOT of MONEY to Shop {How general,ain't it? :P}
5)The ability to study with getting bored (:

Answer the following questions:
1.(the person who tag you is ...)
My 'Daddy' Mengchao, who fathers Albert&I.

2.(your relationship with him/her is ...)
My reallllyyyy good friend (:

3.(your 5 impressions of him/her ..)
ANTI-SOCIAL&weird! :X {to a certain extent}, Kind, Full of crap, basically NICE.

4.(the most memorable thing he/she had done for you)
He helped me buy my Home Econs ingredients ard midnight before my practical exam. It was really sweet of him.

5.(the most memorable words he/she had said to you)
'BOO!'

6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will..)
O.O! I'll probably skin him alive.

7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)
Make him more sociable! {Heh, SORRY.}

8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...)
Irritate him.

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be ...)
Cos he doesn't wanna talk to me for no apparant reason.

10.(the most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is ...)
To give him a proper celebration for his birthday :/ {Sorry Again!}

11.(your overall impression of him/her is ...)
He's nice (:

12.(how you think people around you will feel about you?)
Random?

13.(the character you love of yourself are ...)
Umm..I guess its my ability to find the plus side in everything? :/ Haha.

14.(on the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are ... )
I'm Complacent and indecisve sometimes.

15.(the most ideal person you want to be is ...)
I'm getting there (:

16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them ...)
I love you!

17.(pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you)
1.Chia Mengchao
2.Song Jiyeon
3.Kong Wenyi
4.Shermin Pok
5.Tiffany Tam
6.Denise Pun
7.Kamesh! {HAHAHAH!}
8.Linda Lim
9.Grace Huan
10.Lee Minyen

18.(Who is no.6 having relationship with?)
I don't know. I think they broke up :/

19.(Is no.9 a male or female?)
She's a violenist GIRL :D

20.(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)
OMGosh. Uhh, 7 used to like 10. But, no comments whether its a good thing or not (:

21.(How about no.8 and 5?)
I never want them to be lesbians,thankyouverymuch.

22.(What is no.2 studying about?)
I don't know. Same as us?

23.(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?)
Quite a long time ago :/

24.(What kind of music band does no.8 like?)
Hahah, she like HSM2! And Jap songs (:

25.(Does no.1 has any siblings?)
OMGOSH, I don't know.

26.(Will you woo no.3?)
SURE.

27.(How about no.7?)
NOPE.

28.(Is no.4 single?)
She's taken! :D

29.(What's the surname of no.5?)
TAM. Cool right?

30.(What's the hobby of no.4?)
Gossiping! :X

31.(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?)
They constitute the SAD Club tgr.

32.(Where is no.2 studying at?)
PHS (:

33.(Talk something casually about no.1)
He's random like me sometimes!

34.(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?)
Haha, I have A LOT of feelings towards her :P

35.(Where does no.9 live at?)
Admiralty

36.(What color does no.4 like?)
I usually associate her with colourful.

37.(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)
Nope.

38.(Does no.7 likes no.2?)
Haha, don't think so. But he calls her KOREA (:

39.(How do you get to know no.2?)
Cos she sat beside me in Sec 2 and became my best friend! :D

40.(Does no.1 have any pets?)
I don't know about that too ):

41.(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)
LOL, define sexy!

THank a lot Mengchao, for killing my boredom! Got to go for my dental appointment! (:
BYEEEEE.

OH YES!
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY MINYEN!

undeniable

2007-09-05T00:07:00.000+08:00

heeheehee!
went to school for dance practice. the security guard uncle was kinda cool.he was really nice to get us the music room keys even though no teacher was there to supervise&approve permission :X heh. we did the chorus&second verse today. hohoho :D i guess it was quite fruitful. cos we managed to learn all of it. HU decided to cut the music so it'd be less complicated, how thoughtful! :P

attendees for camp planning: me, minyen, tbt! LOL. so the whole thing was cancelled.time was spent teaching terence hw to play a piano piece.it wasn't that bad though.but i still wonder if he's doing it for WY :P anyw, went home.

sorry 2I girls,
i had to stay home. i don't knw if you guys knw the reason yet.so if you don't knw,ask someone who knws, like jiyeon or tam. heh (:

we three fetched mummy from her workplace. we finally got into Aston's {a streakhouse} to dine there. superb coleslaw, frenchfries. everything was teriff!i shall go there again soon! :D

it's undeniable.

comex 2007

2007-09-02T23:21:00.000+08:00

whooohooo! :D
the comp's finally in my room! we finally set up th wireless connection. we spent a lot at th IT fair today. walked ard until our legs were sore ): we did stop by for Gloria Jeans' though :D mummy's treat for making up to me being really grouchy cos i was hungry&had to wait by th door for cheesedale to finish shopping for kev&for her to redeem her stuffs@the various counters.
these are what we shopped for:
>mummy's olympus 8.0 mega pix camera.
>mummy's compaq laptop} we took eons to decide on this.
>our wireless adaptors&router.
>kevin's wireless keyboard&mouse.
>shanelle's wireless mouse.
>we got a free office printer! }consisting fax,phone,copier,printer etc.

yup,that shld be all. i guess. chris actually wanted to go shop some more, but then after he saw my expression, he decided not to :X we cabbbbedddd home! it felt great! :D

ahhhhhhhhh, i can now lie down&enjoy my drama series at the comfort of my own bedroom! i knw some of you may already have that luxury, but still, be happy for me!

i need time to think it through..

anew, afresh (:

2007-09-02T12:04:00.000+08:00

yesterday's service was really good :D it was the second last service of th SOTM. i guess everything that was in me@ that time, i decided to let them go. i didn't know how to feel yet, but after the service, i kinda gathered my thoughts again. anyw, i thank God for everything that has happened,cos it made me stronger. i don't know how he feels now, whether or not i'm being fair to him. but i decided that everything would be fine if we'd both let everything go. i regretted treating him that way, but i didn't regret everything from happening. i guess its just part&parcel of life,&that this is s'posed to make me a better person. i can already see it in me&i'm happy (:

"No reserves, No retreats, No regrets"

mummy&chrissy went to church in the mrng. we're going to th IT fair later (: mummsy's buying wireless for us. OHMYGOOSSSHHH, she finally agreed to put my comp in my room! :D:D:D:D:D wooooohh! today's our post-stress shopping day! she said she'll bring me out, actually i suggested it, but she agreed! hahah. i talked to her about it last night, she was really nice about it&told me lots of stuffs. i have to admit, i've affected her too :| but change is always for the better, i believe it is :D

thank you jiyeon&kamesh! although i didn't really talk abt it much. but i was really glad that you guys were glad for me. in case anyone of you are worrying, i'm fine (: truthfully, honestly, from the BOTTOM OF MY HEART! :D

where'd you go

2007-09-01T11:40:00.000+08:00

goshhhhhhhh.
yesterday was be-yourself-day cum aces day :D
yet me&jeanette got the shock of our lives when we found out th steps were changed.
there wasn't any complicated one anymore.
only the simplified version :| so we monkey-saw-monkey-did all the way.
well, i personally felt that most of the student population enjoyed it.
some tried to do it, some just watched. others just stood there, doing nth.
well, at least its better than other schools, they have school-wide walks in their school's neighbourhood.heh.
aces dance is soooooo much better kay!

we ended debrief at ard 11.45am.rushed to orchard to join mummy at her school's teacher's day buffet@the orchard hotel :D took the train with TAMUTAMU, XIAORAY&YINGHUI (MR GREEN MAN). i ate a lottttt of salmon there {which just means i'm gonna be smarter by the days}.
i decided not to join th 6/2 clique to cedar cos it was too late.
walked with mummy to heerens to get flipflops from NUM. goshhhh, don't they get confused by the 3 diffferent stores they divided the whole shop into? :O maybe it was space constrain, maybe not. maybe they purposely bought 3 different shops at 3 different corners of the same level of the heeren shopping centre.
heh, anyw, singapore poly students/staff receive a 20% off their flipflops {i don't knw abt fashion bags&clothes} when they present their student/staff passes.
cool right!too bad i couldn't get 20% off.

\it came as a shock to me, i knew you weren't yourself. its been 17 hours since you told me abt it. i don't know whether to call them excuses or call you indecisive. if you can't trust me about these things, we cannot move on. i have to tell you, i understand how you feel. but this choice of yours is gna take us a really long way, this isn't like how i chose to do it in the past, when everything ended up being reversed. it's no use saying sorry, cos now what you show me is that you're running away fr reality. you make that decision, &i'll do my own part. yet i knw how you've been through how i felt many times, its just that this consequence is far too drastic./

anyw, went to cg at pat's place. we took ages to reach our destination. 2hr10min spent ): of course, we could've been smarter&took the other way&saved @least an hr. but yeah, heidi&i spent ______ time tgr. {fill that in yourself, cos i thought it was indescribe} but it was really good anyw. jo challenged us many things. &gave us a new perspective of how a Christian shld be like.

i don't wanna be a white-washed tomb!

zealous = passionate = intense love.

happy birthday to me! (:

2007-08-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

firstly,thank you everyone who celebrated my birthday with me. in one way or another. be it a simple birthday wish,singing birthday songs,chipping in to my presents or a birthday handshake :D it all meant a lot.

songjiyeon!
thank you, cos i knw that everything kinda worked out cos of you (: and you kinda coordinated everything right? (: you're really really appreciated! BFFS! i love you dearest! <3

2I girls;
i was really touched. even though i can't deny th fact that i'm TISSUE PAPER QUEEN aka KLEENEX GIRL now (: i really enjoyed spending my birthday with you all. thank you cee! for wrapping the presents, sacrificing countless amounts of tissue rolls. heh.

to the SLs!
thanks for singing me happy birthday twice! :D you guys started my day superbly! you guys always make me happy. hahaha, we're all clique clique! &thanks for being gracious when i do things wrong or get distracted {which happened a couple of times already} :D i love you guys.

to many many other people!
i shall try my best to name them :D
jacob, mingyan, minyen, albert, mengchao, melody, gladys, sheryl, elena, val.chen, elias, loretta, huiling, madeline, raymond, jonathan lee, joey, mingchuen, bryan, siyang, anadee, jasper, yiwei, xinyi, cherie, wenya {whose birthday falls on the same day as me!}, kamesh {i don't knw if he wished me, but he did rmbr}, benedict, athirah. some others whom i barely knew also wished me, yup. i was really touched by that fact :D

kuekjing baked 29 cookies for me. it was really sweet! :D heh.
they looked and smelled REALLY nice, tasted like heaven too.
everyone who tasted was surprised to knw that a GUY baked them :P

albert&i celebrated our birthday with mengchao, jasper, kenneth, jiyeon&grace@ NEWYORK NEWYORK! the bill amounted to $145.32 or sth like that. the service charge+7% GST totalled $21++ :O anyw, we had a great time!they stuffed two soft toys&a wrapped present inside my bag. lol. i think we were spoiling the tranquil by playing 'heartattack' at the corner of the restaurant. spent almost 3 hours there i think.we shld really have more of those things coming (:

chris bought $41++ worth of sushi to celebrate my birthday. we ate it after my tuition (: heh.mummy's cell who were all at our place at that time all said that we were so loving&sweet :D but its true, i love my two brothers! A LOT. we took loads of picture. credits would go to my phone's self-timer! [:

today's kuekjing's, athirah's {my P2 friend} and jeerui's birthday!
so HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEOPLE! :D
sorry kuek,

here are the pictures!
by order of chronology:

looks like they're doing smth wrong.

so gay!

the girls :D

seafood platter for TWO! O.O

done by yours truly.

fried mars bar!YUMYUMYUM!

bertbert!

all of us {except mengchao ):}

thank you BestFriend, for coming over@6.27am in the mrng to sing me a birthday song (:

:P

the wonderfullest three!

thank you for everything you've done for me (:

pieces of my heart (:

exasperated

2007-08-22T18:43:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of failing A.Math already ):
I'm so sick of explaining to her, and whatever.
Sigh.

found

2007-08-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

All I ever want,
all I ever need,
I found in You.

picture perfect

2007-08-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

hahah,tam! the AI FENG (love-crazy) girl.

the best siblings you could ever have :D

clique!

zhijuan!<3

happy birthday bestfriend! :D

we were pretty amazed.

point of difference

2007-08-17T22:21:00.000+08:00

I really enjoyed Jiyeon's birthday dinner celebration! :D Although the cake part was a spoiler. Dinners with the clique is enjoyable, always. Though not all of us went: Denise, Silly ): But then, still, I think Jiyeon liked it. She went to the Prata Hse&spent $34.80 or sth like that. Tam had durian prata, which made her sick. Hahah :P We took the bus to J8, all amazed by the Jacob's Biscuit World thing. I took pictures! Shall post them after they're uploaded (:

Today marks the end of Term 3's Common Tests! Bio was :| and Lit was okay. But yeah, I guess I'll need to pull up my socks by the end of years. Jacob, Kuek& I have got plans on the 24th :D New York New York! Hahah.

We did the usual today, talked a lot about her. I'm still contemplating on what to do with the new knowledge I've gained. Sigh. It'll do him help,but yet his reactions is unpredictable. He is, after all, my good friend. But then again, everything's hearsay, and may not be true. I should just wait and see.

To Jiyeon:
GIRL, I LOVE YOU! <3 &the past conflicts and everyth we had doesn't matter. We were quite childish lah :$ We're both turning one year older soon, which makes us wiser people :D Thank you for always being there to hear me rant! I find sheer pleasure in doing mean things to you, cos I knw that you'll still love me for who I am! :D
So,
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN! <3

bestfriend hotline

2007-08-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

Jiyeon! I need to talk to you!
:D
I'm definitely lost in my thoughts now.
):

I can't bring myself to be angry with you.

resigned

2007-08-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

Ever felt like sometimes you try to get away from something,
and you try so hard, only to find yourself back at square one?

That's how I felt. I resigned to my fate, in a way.
But I think I'm gonna enjoy the rest of it.
I find no point in running away, cos I've tried.
It feels like this is how its s'posed to be.
(:

Kev's operation is 3 days away ): He's been cooking for us the past few days, cos it may take him months to recover after his operation. Sigh. But I promise! To be a better sister, to cook&clean for him during his recovery :D Hahah.

decipher

2007-08-11T13:14:00.000+08:00

Went to Marina Square to watch Rush Hour 3 with BestFriend yesterday :D It was superbly fun. I guess its been some time since we went out tgr already. We went to the Build-A-Bear Workshop, we planned to get it already. But then we figured it was bothersome. We couldn't figure the clothes, name&sound. So we postponed the purchase. Hahah (: My dearest girlfriend sms-ed me: "girl!how?!my birthday?". (Lol. JIYEON! There's NewYorkNewYork at CityLink! {I think you already knw} So we shall go there! Okay?! The food there looks DEE-LEE-CIOUS!) :D Walked from Suntec to Marina Square to Suntec agn, in search to find SpongeBob SquarePants ): Only to realised that the version in Toys R'Us looked pirated :X I mean, it looked quite retarded. I mean, as much as I LOVE SBSP, it just didn't look right. So we cancelled that too :| So, we trained to Wisma for dinner& finally got the things we wanted for the longest time (:

It was like reality struck as time passed. She got so pissed with me cos I didn't do what I said I'll do. Sometimes I wished that she could crawl into my skin&walk around in it to see how I'd feel. She might probably be thinking I'm doing everything insanely, without thinking.

I dare say I tried, you just didn't know all this. He told me to talk to you nicely, he knew how I was gonna feel. Would telling you help? :| You seem to like the 'pushing-effect' when you just push me to do what you deem right. I keep trying to push that feeling I have towards you away. I'm beginning to feel that I have the responsiblity to give in to you.

So anyw, I was thinking real hard. I decided to put all the advance presents away, store it in my cupboard&wait 18 days until I take them out again :X You might think it's stupid, but I miss the 'receiving' feeling :X &that feeling of suspense. Hahah (: Daddy's back in Sg, by the way. I miss him! Much much much. Heh. Mummy called Daddy& asked him to get the perfume for my birthday! I was quite surprised, cos I'd never thought she'd do that. Mummy's usually nagging&telling me I waste too much $ :X But she's still the best anyway, whether or not she said that or bought anything :D

Chesedale's bugging me to use the comp nw. BYE :D

I'm sorry I threathened the existence of what we had.

stronger

2007-08-10T01:51:00.000+08:00

Sometimes knowing too much brings one disappointments.
Thinking too much can brings one sadness.
So what do we actually do when we're doing too much?

I read Shermin& Tam's blog just now.
I don't know, but somehow I felt that way when I read those words.

I just hope&pray that they'll both come out stronger than before (:

Then I realised that it was true;
Every day of our lives is a lesson learnt.

facade

2007-08-09T15:18:00.000+08:00

Gosh, I'm so so mad. And its not those kinda anger mismanagement kinda thing. I'll name solid evidence for being angry if I have to :| I think I've done quite a good job managing 'unwanted' emotions from 10am till now :D

To begin with it was a talk with K. I finally realised smth, which I actually didn't quite bother before. Maybe cos I've never felt how it would feel like. I know what you're saying, and what you mean by you've never done it to me. But the fact that you'd actually do it, to someone, makes me talk to you like that. I wouldn't knw what came upon me to react that way, but I know I shld've known right from the start, when you told me that you'll only use people when you have no other choice. You may think I'm overeacting. But let me tell you this: What you're doing now is detestable. I don't know how other people would stand it. Words like 'discard', would you like it if someone else used it on you? So I suggest you think again. I'm sorry I talked to you so curtly, but maybe it's just been piling up on the inside.

There, it's out&I feel so much better. I have to thank BestFriend for feeling for me. He's one person I cannot do without :D

RushHour3 is out today&we're gonna watch it tmrw! plusplus,Daddy's coming back tmrw! :D That's double happy-ness for me. Heh.

Check out the song me&Mich likes:
Click HERE!

This one's the one from yesterday!
Click HERE!
Maybe the one in Spanish is nicer, I don't know.
Check it out yourself :P

I read the History CT chapts once over today. I don't know what to write in my factsheet! ): Kev said factsheets were unfair,which implied his generation got cheated of marks in their CTs :D He made CHEESE PRATA agn for breakfast! :D Hoho, I've got two most wonderful brothers :D

Plans are lined up already! For the super fabulous FOURSOME.
Sleepover@ZhiJuan's place.
Manhattan Fish Market Outing.
Mich's Batam Hse Visit [?]
F.Y.I, it takes $34.00 to get from Sg Harbourfront to Batam Centre! :D
Mich,Albert&I going back to our TANAH AIR. Hahah.
&Uhh, etc etc.

But we haven't done anything tgr yet! Ahh!, this is INFURIATING!
Mich, HELPPP! D:

Chesedale Cheese!

Kevin&I

Stick with You.

phs carnival!

2007-08-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

We raised $248 today! I don't knw if it's a good thing or a bad thing. As compared to th volleyball girls, who raised $1128, I think. We are like..super far from our targetted amt. But then we did have fun whilst tending our booth :D I loved the part when everything ended, and everyone went hyper&high. We took a whole lot of group photos. {Thanks to Benjamin, our cameraman!} I'll still pledge loyalty to UVPHS, anytime! Hahah.

I took random photos with th 3 Sec1 Councillors: Benjamin,WeiJie&other junior. I guess I warmed up those 3 especially, and a few others, even though it had just been probably a month since I knew them. I just hope they'll 'blossom' in council, cos I can see their passion inside. It's just not coming out enough, at least thats what I think..

So here here is th day's events:

"no time ah!"

julia

just one random picture

done by our one&only KUEKJING :D

jiayin, her talent is wonderment.{i mean it in a really good way}

zhijuan&mel!

:D

i love em both! (:

AZLI! another favourite! :D

ah, the most brilliant of all! UVPHS {:

Jill came! She said she enjoyed today too. Ah, I miss her. A lottttt.

That kinda sums up everything! I'd say today was a fulfilling&fruitful. I met BestFriend at 6.10AM today. Hah, it was great.Fantastic,whatever :D So, although I'm really tired right now, I'm still feeling gay.

Ohohohoh, check this out! The lyrics are super sad. To me?, at least.

Gallery by Mario Vazquez

God broke the mold,
When he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your lungs closed
Making you never want to breathe again
Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she chose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

Because I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be,
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused
She knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do
Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

Tell me is the money worth your soul
Tell me what's the reason that you hold on,
When you know that dude has a whole wall of 'em just like you
And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like i do
Beautiful not just for show
Time that someone let you know

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery
It's just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery

Ohyes,HAPPY SINGAPORE'S BIRTHDAY! :D

Mich, I want to go to your new Batam hse, if you get it! I book already. Advance booking would mean it'd be cheapcheap right? :P

happyness

2007-08-07T23:00:00.001+08:00

happy-ness
:D

imperfect

2007-08-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's the carnival day! I don't know what to expect, seriously. We haven't started on the setting up of the stall yet. Lol. I hope everything comes down to a success though :D Charles seemed really stressed out by everything going on. But I do salute him, for having the courage to realize his dreams. Not forgetting the few others, of course. I SALUTE YOU PEOPLE! :D

Nothing much happened, I went to the dentist today! I think I settle for porridge from today on. Until the pain subsides, somehow, someday soon.

I don't know what to expect from the her. I'M IN A HORRIBLE DILEMMA.
What should I do? A part of me is reminded by what the other people say.
Yet another part of me can't stop being sympathetic towards her.
Somehow, I really dislike the pretence, a lot.
:|

Ohohohohoh! Can't wait for the St. Gabs concert next week. I've decided, after weeks of contemplation: I'm going! Ben& Sam's going too :D I miss them both,a lot.

Rah,aces! D:
I'm so lagging behind.

:|
you chose to flaunt your imperfections

festival of praise

2007-08-05T09:33:00.000+08:00

The Festival of Praise was 'WOW'. It was refreshing for me, personally. After weeks of being stagnant, I had revelations once again.

One thing that hit me hard was that:
God doesn't ever put you in trails, to see you being overcomed by them. Even though sometimes it may be a long&hard process to get out that tunnel in your life which seem endless, but you will. Sometimes He's just sleeping, so that we ourselves would wake up :D

Thank God the queueing up process wasn't that bad, cos I had Mummy with me! I was asking her if she'll stay in Sg or go to Indo after she retires fr work.

So here's the plan: Retirement > Indo > HUGE HOUSE. Of course, that plan includes Daddy :D
But if it were me, I'd like : Retirement > Indo > HUGE HOUSE > Take $ from children > SHOPPING ALL DAY! :D

I was pretty mad, when she said that children couldn't be trusted. She said that after they marry, they'll put their parents aside. Don't even have to wait until they get married, when they get a boy/girlfriend, its already the case. Even the chinese drama serial I watch at 5.30PM everyday also 'advertises' that. =| The story goes like this: The father brings his two sons up, catering for their needs. Then when he retires, he gives his hardearned savings to his two sons. (Amounting to millions, I think.) His sons take the money, and eventually leaves their dad on his own. Even when he has a stroke and asks for money for his medical/hospital bills. They reply nonchalantly: "I DONT HAVE MONEY!"

Yeah right.

But still! Parents shouldn't stereotype their children and compare them to television characters right? =\ But then on the other hand, we're all still unsure of the future, so its understandable that she said that. So anyw, all of us children shld aspire to be FILIAL children! ;D

Mummy& I.

Daddy& I :D [On our Vietnam trip, at the hotel}

'Xiao' which means, filial piety in Chinese.

Deut 5:16
"Honor your father and your mother, as the LORD your God has commanded you, that your days may be long, and that it may be well with you in the land which the LORD your God is giving you."

Plus, its one of the 10 Commandments.
=| Sometimes I'm guilty of not honouring them.
But it's not too late for a change, right?

clique

2007-08-04T11:47:00.000+08:00

The week pretty much passed real quick. But,the most unforgettable event would be Shermin's birthday dinner@some Toa Payoh seafood restaurant. The venue didn't matter, cos the people present mattered more (: It was so heartwarming seeing all 9 of us there, the 2Integ girls. Was really enjoyable. Tiff Tam made the gathering of all 9 of us all possible! Her underlying motives in whatever she did on the 2nd of August. Hahha, the memory still lies embedded in my heart& mind.
:D

The rest of the pictures can be found: here

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERM!

Kevin made cheese sausage prata for me agn today! This time it was really CHEESY, I liked it. Heh. He's a good cook, needless to say. but his cooking comes rarely. So I took ard 15mins to savour it. Yummy!

I can't believe it, CT resumes the following week! Hahah :D I didn't know until today. I shall pray& pray that Loret&Jiyeon can make it for BayBeat@the Esplanade tmrw! I can't wait, we all desperately need to catch up. Right, MI XUE NA TA XIA? :D

I can't wait for daddy to be back from indo, I do miss him much.

Ohohoh, I'm loading Freedown Writers now! But it's taking ages ):
I wanna watch Coach Carter too. I heard it was really inspiring.

new beginning

2007-07-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

the past few days was tiring, yet enjoyable.
the most memoriable event was of course, the Student Council Investiture [:
our past few days of practices/rehearsals paid off!
the juniors got their reward for the splendid performance.
they got their councillor badges two days earlier than as planned.
anticipation&anxiety were seen before the investiture.
smiles were seen during the event.
&faces of relief were seen after the entire thing.
i was anticipating meeting Ben agn!
he asked to come for phs's investiture to see me investitured!
(and i rly appreciated that!)
it was that unexplainable feeling that made me rly happy.
to see a friend from primary school ago, whom i used to be rly close to 6 years ago.
i'm still rly thankful for these lasting friendships.
:D

i got to see Lillian's special friend! ;D heh. from some (green coloured pants) school, i didn't rly get their names though :X we ate the buffet prepared in th library. things went rly well! Ben said that our school girls are too friendly. (like what's that s'posed to mean!?) i guess it's a good thing. it must be! heh.

i'd nvr thought today would come.
the day i managed to get to sleep till 12plus in the afternoon. it felt stupendous! (got that fr the dictionary, actually i dont knw if i'm using it right.it just means amazingly great.) was making up for the amt of sleep loss throughout the week [: felt great.

went to church. it was amazing, rly. Rev. Richard Roberts came. he's a healing evangelist and i must say i was rly impacted by what he did. or rather, how God was working through him. i felt His tengible touch once again, as i saw various people being healed& being set free from illnesses&physical restraints. even a girl with broken fingers got healed. dislocated joints,etc. Huiyun claimed the healing& her knees got well again. as long as there's faith, things will begin to change. and i believe it! :D

met mummy aft service& we went to Vivocity to do some shopping! bought th NUM bag i wanted for some time. i count it as a blessing [: although i had to pay for it on my own. mummy paid for it first anyw! :D i'll pray that she'll write th I.O.U off =$

this was the widest paper bag i've seen. i shld get the actual length&post it. it really really.. long.

counting th blessings! (:

&some random pictures..

the past we all used to share.

tiff tamutamu!

tmrw's Mengchao's birthday! yay. it's actually 6mins away :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MENGCHAOCHAO! ;D
thanks for being such a great 'daddy' to me and BertBert! ;D
WE LOVE YOU!

birthday plannings are oh-so-fun!
i plan to bring Jiyeon to the Singapore Zoological Garden on her birthday! (zhijuan,okay?!)
&Ben to the Jurong Bird Park! (:

Isaiah 40:31

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

i made things right by making that decision
i'd never thought i'd do so willingly.
so now i'm determined to walk this path i've paved for myself.

the simplicity of the heart.

hail the earth

2007-07-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

'LIVE EARTH'

it's EARTH DAY today! so HAPPY EARTH DAY everybody! :D
today's 070707 - jo's and clement's weddings were held today.
CONGRATULATIONS! [:

i'm IM-ing with ben now. he said sth so so true! he's still the closest friend apart frm M since primary school [: i can still recall the days i sat with him in primary 6 class. he'd nag at me for nagging at him to do his own homework everyday. ohh, i miss those days. we'd pass this book during class among th four of us, we'd write EVERY thought inside. it was fun. really fun ;D

mich's birthday is on the 16th of July everyone! rmb to wish her! :D i hope zhijuan&i can make it for the dinner. we shld probably sneak out! =P

♥MICHTASHIA says (23:02):
its in a restaurant!
♥MICHTASHIA says (23:02):
and there'll be courses
♥MICHTASHIA says (23:03):
i dont know.
♥MICHTASHIA says (23:03):
it wouldnt be nice if you were late

ahhhhhhh! i dont want to miss it! D:
booooooooooo.
i shall praypraypray that choir ends early, so we can rush there in time! {Mich,see how excited i am? =P}

oh yeah, this was what happened.

sisca: eh, tmr must wear green. it's earth day what. you know you know?

that's what i said to ivan on the phone yst. he really wore green today! but i wore black. cos i clearly had Short Term Memory! i felt so guilty even saying that to him yesterday :X cos he doesn't wear green AT ALL. i did a number of unexpected stuffs today. i slapped him twice, out of sheer pleasure/playfulness. i still can't believe i did it =| i feel guilty all over ):

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown, full grown.
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

this song keeps reminding me of independence & growing up.i guess i haven't surrendered the child in me totally. anyw, i like it [:

soccer match

2007-07-07T22:02:00.000+08:00

woke up @12.07pm today. i guess i really was shagged from all the events yst. we had Honour's Night, but we had to report to school at 2pm. i woke up @5.30am! =| i thought for about 5mins before deciding to send SF to school ;D it was different! to see a person with his/her morning face. thats what loret told me, and i guess it's true! people DO look different in the morning, as compared to different times of the day.

Honour's Night was a success! [: the prep for the deco's & arrangements in the hall was done! we managed to do it! ;D it was real fun serving food& all. seeing the choir members gave me great joy. i do miss choir, very very much! they're all happy people, i suppose. happiness should be contagious, right? [: council is much fun too!although serious times are probably more than fun times. but they could be spiced up tgr too. ahh, i'm random. i know. heh. we went back home at 11plus ): i didn't like it! cos it was pretty late&everyone zoomed to the mrt station to catch th last train. i waited for a cab alone ): but it was pretty alright, as long as i have my phone with me. what i loved most about Honour's Night was the sparkling juice part! Mrs C.Tan is such an amazing principal. i'm sure many of us PHS-ians would agree to that too. i love the speeches she gives, esp. that day at Chapel. many a times, others would say things out of obligation. but she speaks with so much conviction,i like the way she stands up for what she believes in.i really admire her for that! [: uhhhhh, a random thought- i miss nigel- my choir junior alotttttttttt. don't know why, it just so.

i went to see ivan play soccer with his team! i lost today's 'pepsi cola 1,2,3' with him today ): anywanwy,it was soooooo cool!they had their own jerseys so they looked professional. well, at least to me! played against another combined team. the score was 2-1! he scored 2 - so i'm superdeeduper proud of him! ;D by the time the match ended it was ard 8pm alr. i couldn't see him score! D:
1: my poor vision.
2: it was dark even with the streetlights on.

he told me he almost 'banged into a pole' aft scoring. haha ;D

boo, i realised i missed talking to ben! i hope he can make it for the investiture on friday! D:

met a weird lady today. she started psycho-ing me, saying that my own church wasn't good. she started on some other issues. i just stood there to listen, out of respect. i figured i should be courteous. so anyw, i told mummy about my little encounter. she said i should've excused myself and walked away. oh well,everyone has got their own views i guess.

i know what's wrong, and i realise the effects it's taking on me. but good habits are so hard to form. do you knw it takes a person 6 weeks to get a habit going? =| i need His grace so bad.&i shall receive it! [:

let your life speak.

virtual

2007-07-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

I did smth SUPER EMBARRASSING today!
=$
M cabbed all the way down to school,just to make sure i was okay. Cos i was pms-ing during the last few periods of school. I felt really guilty about it D: I'm really thankful for him [:

I missed an episode of Spongebob Squarepants today! ): Argh! Oh, and I'm really thankful for SONG ZHI JUAN! Who would ask me to keep going, and not to give up! :D

Thankyou Song Zhi Juan! I love you! Heh.

I just found out that I'd be ushering for Honour's Night. Then I can gorge myself on the tons of food at the buffet! Woah-oh. Gorge seems to be such an UNGLAM word to use :X Anyw, point taken!

:D

relieved.

2007-07-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

whoooooooooooooah.
i finished clement's homework! finally.
except for th professionalism part.
that one is REALLY TRICKY.
i should do some cross-referencing tmr before handing it in (:
i have a sudden urge to go watch 'freedom writers' agn!
i shall get it! by hook or by crook.
:X

i wanna watch 'full house' also!& 'one litre of tears'.
):
but it's so irritating with so many things you wanna do,
with absolutely no time at all.
its just the WRONG TIME to WANT to DO all these things.

i was talking to M just now, about how drama serials cheat on kissing scenes.
they sort of change the angle so that the girl/boy's head is covering th boy/girl's head.
get it? heh.
so viewers think that they're kissing, when they're actually not!
:X
hah, i aspire to be a movie director one day.
cool aye?

binding

2007-07-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

I've got a whole list of things to do, but i just decided to blog anyway. I guess things have been happening. A lot of things. But they haven't been bothering me a lot. It's just once in a while.. I think about them. thinking if I could solve those existing problems. At least, one other person may be happier in some way or another. Besides, she's my best friend.
And I love her! :D

I missed my dental appointment yesterday ): I forgot all about it. Chesedale forgot to remind me too. I have to wait 2 weeks to get it done again. I kinda miss the strain on my teeth =S M and I had a tiff last Friday, it was super horrible. I cried, a lot. M cried too. Everything wasn't okay until yesterday.

:D
I'm so glad everything worked out.
We came out better than how we used to be.

I'm still figuring if what Mrs.X said expressed her distaste for the HPT. I was so mad when I heard it. How could she even compare those two tgr?! RAHH, I shouldn't even be bothered. As long as I know I love HPT, everything is aye-okay ;D

Today was the best ever. M came over to watch spongebob AGAIN! Haha, it was stress relieving. As if I'm suffering from so much stress! =S

Sweeeeett.

vietnam, ho chi minh.

2007-06-16T23:23:00.000+08:00

i'm back from vietnam, ho chi minh :D:D
i guess it was alright, pretty much like singapore.
fast-paced& busy.
probably not so modernized, thats all.
but i love their historical monuments.
they have a lot of meaning in them.
i'm glad i actually gained quite a bit of knowledge abt the Vietnam War.
its like..painful to know.

the church of nortre dame, built when the french occupied vietnam. heh.

one of the many pretty stained glasses found.

the people who made it happen.

the president's palace! ;D

this is like the 'front porch'. big enough to play baseball alr! ;D

there're more, but i don't rly have the time to post them all.
i'm leaving again in like.. 6 hours ):
i'm so happy i went for th neos conference yst.
;D
things that happened these few days made me have a new perspective of things.
yay.

softball

2007-06-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

TALK the TALK
meen: must go find one day to go out! like how we used to ): we're not the THREE PIGS anymore! D: rahhhh. we have to gain the crazy times back! its weird w/o you two! ):

linnwenmin: of courseeeeee! hpt batch 8 is still hpt batch 8! ;D &we started the batch with you guys around tooooo! (: i miss the camp times a lot though. it was so cool :D chalet-ing with you!

jiyeon: hahaha. NOTED (: i'll relink. i miss you a lot can?! how come i'm always th one saying that. DON'T YOU MISS ME?! O.O

gabriel: lol. hmmmm..?

dorii: hoho, i'll link! dont worry. SEEEEEEYOUUUUAROUNNDDDDD SOOOONNNN! ;D

i went to the Softball Carnival organized by the Singapore Recreation Club just now.
whoooooahhh ;D
i enjoyed it, a lot.
bestfriend injured his foot ): so i was kind enough to follow him places :P

i think i'm suffering fr some weird stomach illness.
i constantly feel like vomitting D;
which is irritating,really.

i miss SONGJIYEON!
i miss telling her my secrets!
i want the sleepover, badly!
then MICH, you'll knw ALL MY SECRETS tooooo.
its a 2-in-1 combo! ;D

back to basics

2007-06-05T20:38:00.000+08:00

i woke up real early today ): mummy kept bugging cos i was sleeping in her room :X anyw,
bestfriend came over after school& we watched approx. 5 full episodes of Spongebob Squarepants! :D we were both too lazy to eat, so we skipped lunch.

met mummy at somerset. shopping's still my best interest! esp. when my shopping partner is mummsyy! ;D i finally got my long-awaited Levi's! [: &we're going swimming tmr! hahahhaa, it's been eons since we went swimming. i'm fortunate that she's got a month of holidays too :D

ohman, i've got 5days to clear ALL my homework& do my whole holiday's revision ):

i wanna go out with THE PIGS. it's been toooo long not to go out tgr already! D:

the leader

2007-06-02T11:05:00.000+08:00

this is what i found on the net whilst researching on my english assignment (:

The Leader

Patient and steady with all he must bear,
Ready to meet every challenge with care,
Easy in manner, yet solid as steel,
Strong in his faith, refreshingly real,
Isn’t afraid to propose what is bold,
Doesn’t conform to the usual mold,
Eyes that have foresight, for hindsight won’t do,
Never backs down when he sees what is true,
Tells it all straight, and means it all too.

Going forward and knowing he’s right,
Even when doubted for why he would fight,
Over and over he makes his case clear
Reaching to touch the ones who won’t hear.
Growing in strength, he won’t be unnerved,
Ever assuring he’ll stand by his word.

Wanting the world to join his firm stand,

Bracing for war, but praying for peace,
Using his power so evil will cease:
So much a leader and worthy of trust,
Here stands a man who will do what he must.

RHL

let us emerge

2007-06-02T10:02:00.000+08:00

Emerge 2007 Day 2.
i didn't go for the morning session, only the evening one. the doors opened at ard 6.10pm. i saw DEBORAH! ;D &thank God for zone members like merilyn&celest, i met them at the queue, at least the process wasn't so bad. queuing alone is horrible :| we saw the winners for the Beauty Pageant& Manhunt. Ms Sally Ng who relieved in our school before,won! [: Reid emerged 1st Runner-up for Manhunt. COOL MANXZ ;D;D;D

anyw, then CHEN DI YA and DAREN TAN from PROJECT SUPERSTAR made their guest appearance [: after TANK,who came yesterday ;D anyw, the most important part of the whole entire session yesterday evening was the Word. it really spoke right to me, in fact, i think all of us in the hall were ministered.

a real disciple of God would be CONCERNED about His calling in his/her life, and CONCERNED with how God feels, CONCERNED about His glory.

I WANNA BE A DISCIPLE ;D

then i finally made my Decision. after months of comtemplating& all.but there are still answers left unknown to me, which i need to ask God for. even though i've made that decision, it would be really difficult to follow it. but i'm determined to do so (:

"I AM A GIDEON!"

so so so! anyway,the only part i didn't like was when we were all dismissed& CHESEDALE CHEESE didn't pick up his phone. we were supposed to take a cab home tgr! D: he finally called& said he was on the way home on the train D: he FORSOOK ME! (i know its a STRONG word!) i was pretty mad at him.but then thank God for micah&mum, cos she said she could send me home :D she's a super nice lady! so CHESEDALE CHEESE told mummy that he didnt know i was going. so oh well,it's over anyw. i guess thats how it goes for me (: any anger or whatsoever i feel will go away after SLEEP ;D

it's a great antidote!

catch my drift

2007-06-01T13:39:00.000+08:00

i cannot go for the Council Camp this year!
AGAIN );
im so not happy about it.

to JIYEON!:
what english assignment?! i don't have that paper leh, the one you got at the hall right? i was at the WOW Room for that leadership thingy or some council thingy. ahhh, is that the only assignment? OH NOOOOO! lend me, i need to photocopy ;D

sifting process

2007-06-01T13:07:00.000+08:00

the first day of Emerge 2007 was super-dee-duper good! ;D i enjoyed every bit of it. well, maybe not the queuing up ): but it was all worth it. i must admit, i got a lil' cranky at the end of the day due to the fatigue. the Parade of Schools was fab! ;D NC GOOOOOOOO! i wonder if the results are out yet. i'm just regretful no one from PHS joined POS this year D:

it was spiritual analysing for me, personally. thats why i'm reminded by the sifting& threshing period that i've heard from sermons&stuff.

i'm guided,
but sometimes i feel that doing the right things
is too hard.
but being deluded&
doing wrong,
would cost me a lot more.

and then,
i'm reminded again that a Christian walk is one of COUNTLESS experience.
and its not all smooth-sailing. plus, falling down is easy. but moving up again, is a challenge. sometimes, it's harder than it seems.

&FAITH
= forsaking all i trust Him :D

i just visited the least favourite of all the mr. ong's i know ): he did something that would cause me hurt for the next 3 days. he HAD to use elastic bands, once again. he poked my gum cos he had to hook the band on the bracket, and i don't know if it bleed. but thankfully, i didn't taste any blood. so i guess it didn't bleed. heh (: cool. but still, my teeth is hurting so much now! i don't think i want to hurt myself further by eating chocs, and sweets. ESPECIALLY THE CHEWY CHEWY ONES! they'll stick. which is ewwwwww,yuck.

&therefore, in conclusion,
i dont know what to eat now ):

i believe that you're unappreciative,
so i guess you should know& do something abt it.

don't stay angry, cos you'll grow old faster,
it would probably affect your immune system :|

emerge 2007

2007-05-30T23:30:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's Emerge 2007 already! [: the super long awaiting church conference of the year ;D i have to reach expo by 8am! ): but it'll all be worth it :D i'm pretty much excited about it. in fact, VERY excited. hahah. i guess i finally realised i shouldn't put my faith on people, but rather on Him. although people make a whole lot of difference, but there's something much much greater than that itself.

linn came over to do the placards for olly&jon [: it turned our quite alright, fortunately. we seem to have better ideas after screwing up a bit in the beginning. heh.

:D

its been two days since we last had a proper talk. but i know its for our best interests.

StickWitYou by The PCD.

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick with you forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick with you, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way,
I must stick with you

mich! get your bat&gloves quickly&bring me baseballing! ;D

parent-teacher conference

2007-05-29T20:32:00.001+08:00

OHHNOO!
mummy went for the PTC at school today :/ it was pretty brief cos she told me, "don't bother to come." my results weren't ideal in any way ): but mummy said she was quite happy with my tiny bit of improvement for math :D L1R4- 20& L1R5- 26. i somehow feel that there's no use in working hard for others. everyone's gotta excel because they want to, its not a need. its a desire. cos there's no use living your life out for the sake of others,right? so i guess, i wanna excel because I WANT TO myself [:

was supposed to be at school at 9am today. i was late due to my ill fate of being a victim of a certain kidnapper (there's actually such a word). but i couldn't find anyone at school ): so i went to see Peicai's C'Girls Softball match [: i am determined to study softball! :D i might just pick up the sport some time! its pretty confusing with the various bases& stuff. but it is definitely an interesting sport.

we had our first choir practice yesterday after the mid-years. i realised that.. i missed ms yee a lotttt. &i really felt guilty for being late for that session ): but she was full of grace!

just like HPT's 3Ps, choir has our 3 golden rules too (: i was reminded yesterday.
1.PUNCTUALITY
2.RESPECT
3.ATTITUDE

i guess i was guilty of the first one already.

&i finally saw JEERUI today!
i must say i was pretty shocked to see him :D

looking at the heartbreak around,
i know it isn't meant to be this way.

i desperately need to work things out, time isn't waiting for any one of us. if things are gonna stay this way, i'd rather take the first step.

things don't go our way,
what matters most is that we make the best out of the situation.

there's no point in sulking already! :D

"it's okay to fall down,
you pick yourself up& be stronger in the end."

whooh, updates!

2007-05-27T13:34:00.000+08:00

wait, REPLIES FIRST!

MEEN!: lol. hpt IS council what :D its under th council right? haha, and you shld be happy to be part of HPT COUNCIL! &we have to work harder in it too! &&&i havent talked to you for AGES!&that wasnt an exageration loRxZ. heh. [:

jacobaLvarez: haha, eh, i was in school leh! :D you didnt even talk to me! AT ALL! but i think its bcos i was at th course thing :X so actually..it isnt your fault :D haha. i'll ask you when i see you online!

MICHTASHIA: so Skidamarink doesn't actually mean anything? O.o then sing Skidamarink for whattttt :X lol, anyw, ni de TEST wo ji ge leh! :D wo hui cong xian zai gen ni shuo hua yu! hua yu cool maNxZ. hahahaha :D eh, wo de hanyu pinyin not good leh! :X

JIYEON: auntie! i got a lot to tell you can?! we havent been having those TALKS ever since..TAMAN! ); how could that be! anyw, i'll tell you when i talk to you again! :D take a picture of the pouch thingy&put it up in your blog! :D then i can see. i didn't go to church this week ): smth happened, TELL YOU LATER! [:

VIS: now that i see it, DENISEPUN GOT NO BODY ALREADY! i've nv seen it like that before leh! :X but she looks okay lah, people like you shldnt analyse pictures so closely! :D not good! hhahaha.

here goes my POST for today!

i've come to terms with everything already, i guess. &everyth would probably be okay if i dont compromise anymore. i've been suffering from negative thinking long enough. i finally saw the light. mummy came into my room today&talked some sense into me. i must admit, i haven't been focussing on my blessings, i looked upon what wansn't done for me instead. i've been selfish the past few months. i hope it's not too late to change now. she said that i've been anti-social now,&that the change is pretty obvious ): but i came to realise how much mummy&cheesedale cares for me. i'm pretty fortunate to have a family like this uh? :D

and i still thank God for His grace.

Emerge'07 is just around the corner! i have get ready! ;D we're gonna go out later for lunch. we'll probably go Topshop to get that top that i wanted real bad (: yay.

ohohoh, mummy said we'll be going to ho chi minh next month. i've never been there before, but i hope it'll be a good experience though.plus it gives me plenty of time to spend quality time with daddy :D then its our trip back to indo! which will be a shopping spreeeeeee!but most imptly, the visits to people i loveeeeeeee most!

whatever you fear, you cannot change.

although we knew it would happen, the heartbreak's still there. but you'll be my best friend [: &this would all make us stronger on the inside. the end marked the beginning of something else. hopefully,it'd be something greater.
it'll take pretty long for me to forget you,
&everything we've been through tgr.
i don't intend to suffer from a broken heart,
but i know ~~i'll still love you.~~

my life's getting more transparent ever since i started the blog again! :|

i promise to be
strong on the inside, with a backbone made of steel.

6th SC results

2007-05-24T19:01:00.000+08:00

im feeling mixed feelings.
a part of me feels happy cos what i've worked hard for the past few months finally paid off.
yet another part of me feels sad,totally appalled by the results.
i don't know how i should be feelings now.
during the past few months, i've thought of giving up many times. the suspension almost killed me, and it lasted more than 4 months. i cried buckets because of certain issues.
:|
i dont know, this is just it.
the results is out.
i feel happy to a large extent, yet a small part of me isn't feeling right.

love

2007-05-23T16:56:00.000+08:00

we grow stronger everyday &
i love you more each day! :D

irony

2007-05-23T07:48:00.001+08:00

i woke up at 6.30am! mummy came into my room&asked me if there was school. i still miss her hugs! [: i have to help do the chores later (: this is the first time i'm excited about chores, i dont know why, but i just feel that way :D the camp probably helped me learn to appreciate cleanliness more. i love clean toilets especially!

i never thought it'd be this way& i'm sorry for hurting you again.
it's beginning to feel as though we're fighting for our own happiness, while wanting each other to be happy. its quite ironic, to me.
we started the same way, took the same path, but want different endings.
everything was said, but nothing much was done.
somehow i feel it's my fault, but another part of me says that
it's just meant to be this way.

taman negara camp

2007-05-22T19:32:00.000+08:00

i am content :D
with the 5days&4nights spent at Taman Negara.we did things that i'd probably won't get a chance to do in future, that includes CAVING, FLYING FOX, ABSEILING& RAPIDS SHOOTING. i was homesick on the first day already ): i missed mummy a lot, somehow i missed my korean dramas too :X &then there's Best Friend i miss! [: ce&i were buddy-partners for all 5days&4nights. we did everyth togeher except for bathing! heh. songzhijuan wasnt in the same grp as me! that was the HORRIBLE-EST thing ever ): i missed her much too. abseiling was fun.rapids shooting was even better uh! canopy walk was interesting, being elevated SO HIGH above the rainforest. i prayed hard for no leech-bites and bee stings. &God answered my prayer! :D heh.

the last night there at Taman was quite hysterical with things happening. but the council bonded as we went through everything together. at least we put our differences aside& managed to make the whole trip a success (: i personally felt the student council grow :D i grew to love it more, in a way.

pun&i sat on the train back! i miss 2I luh, really. shermin,vis,ce,tam,wenyi,sili,jiyeon,pun,meen! i wished things stayed the same between us all,just like old times. but nw even though things have changed, we all still could stick by each other right? [:

yay, im proud to say: I OVERCAME MY FEAR!

resplendent--visage

2007-05-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

yay. i finally re-created my blog :D

i love the url: resplendent--visage. don't you? i found the word 'resplendent' on dictionary.com a few months back. the only part i hate most is the skin changing ): the template part drives me crazy. changing of skins isnt that easy anymore, plus, i don't know html codes D: so i shall just stick with this for the time being, at least, until i know what to do.

jiyeon&i went for lunch today. she was holding on to my ez-link since friday after the class outing at sentosa. so finally,i got it back! saves me from the hassle :D i miss watching korean dramas so bad! they make me cry buckets. really! heh. i guess i AM emotional uh. we talked talked talked during lunch [: unfortunately, it was only after lunch that i had a revelation. i was suffering from indigestion ): discomfort in the stomach, and cold ears. that was what jiyeon said. &i was suffering from both. it was horrible. called mummy for help. had to gulp the icky chinese medicine down my throat.. but it did help (: so yay, i'm alright now.

i hope i'm going to school tomorrow. i kinda miss school, at least i don't have to suffer from boredom at home :D